Alhamdulillah.. 'ala kulli ni'amihi..
ana sangat bersyukur ana masih ada peluang untuk hidup..
my heart still pounding faster than ever..
i am very scared but ana dah usaha and now ana tawakkal 'alAllah..
ALLAH KNOWS what is the best for His servants..
never stop praying to Him..
cause He is the the BEST PROTECTOR for all living things..
a few days ago, there is one incident that touched my heart..
Masya Allah..
the people here are very kind-hearted although they are kind a physically rough..
the incident happen when i was on my way to school..
i was walking towards train track, when a blind man, say something to me..
& i dont really understand him but another second blind man say to me in arab but i translate it,"there's a train coming.." & another motherly woman said "Please wait my DEAR.."..
Those words really touched me..
Maysa Allah!! there are my saudara.. saudara seIslam!
i love them! Oh Allah, Please protect them from bad deeds and please lessen their burdens.Amin!
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Islam is perfect.
Masya Allah, after 19 years and over i lived, honestly, now i realised how great my Deen is.
i am proud to be a MUSLIMAH..
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Ya Allah, please guide me to the right path..
You are THE GUIDE TO THE RIGHT PATH.. In YOUR wisdom, you lead all matters to their finality in a perfect way and order..
Astarghfirullahal azim.. I've took the wrong step, wrong path..
Astarghfirullahal azim.. Ya Allah, what have i done to my brothers and sisters of Islam..
Astarghfirullahal azim.. Ya Allah, i realised and really regret for my wrong doings..
Astarghfirullahal azim.. Ya Allah, i repent.. I never want to make those mistakes..
Ya Ghaffar, Please forgive me.. Ya Ghafoor, Please accept my forgiveness..
You are the MOST FORGIVING ONE..
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SILENT.
back to square one.
i think it's the best thing i should do right now.
trying to stand up strongly.
hurt enough. only ALLAH KNOWS.
Please forgive me for those whom i have hurt you directly or indirectly..
Please give me time to change myself..
to be a better person, better Muslimah, Insya Allah...
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Mak, Bapak.. she looks fine..
yet she is deeply missing you both deep in her heart..
loving you both till eternity..
please pray for her..
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لاَ يُؤْمِنُ أَحَدُكُمْ حَتَّى يُحِبُّ لِأَخِيْهِ مَا يُحِبُّ لِنَفْسِهِ
