BehyndtheHijab

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2010-03-25T13:15:00.000-07:00

i dont blog anymore, i'm now a tumblr user! find me there! see you..

2010-02-17T21:33:00.001-08:00

under construction. soon kayy.

:)

2010-01-03T02:48:00.000-08:00

Bismillahirrahmannirahim.

Alhamdulillahi 'ala kulli ni'amihi fi hazihi dunya..

My exams coming. And i am verry scared ok?

I want my mum. I want my dad. I want my family.

Ya Rabb, dekatkan lah hati aku dan hati-hati mereka.

I dont have much thing to blog actually.

I love to keep it underneath.

No one knows.Only Allah.

BUT, i do have some things to share.

and if i have more articles, i shall share with all of you ok?

Rahsia solat..

· Waktu Subuh

Pada waktu Subuh alam berada dalam spektrum warna biru muda yang bersamaan dengan frekuensi tiroid yang mempengaruhi sistem metabolisma tubuh.

Jadi warna biru muda atau waktu Subuh mempunyai rahsia berkaitan dengan penawar/rezeki dan komunikasi. Mereka yang kerap tertinggal waktu Subuhnya ataupun terlewat secara berulang-ulang kali, lama kelamaan akan menghadapi masalah komunikasi dan rezeki.

Ini kerana tenaga alam iaitu biru muda tidak dapat diserap oleh tiroid yang mesti berlaku dalam keadaan roh dan jasad bercantum (keserentakan ruang dan masa) - dalam erti kata lain jaga daripada tidur. Disini juga dapat kita cungkil akan rahsia diperintahkan solat diawal waktu.

Bermulanya saja azan Subuh, tenaga alam pada waktu itu berada pada tahap optimum. Tenaga inilah yang akan diserap oleh tubuh melalui konsep resonan pada waktu rukuk dan sujud. Jadi mereka yang terlewat Subuhnya sebenar sudah mendapat tenaga yang tidak optimum lagi.

· Waktu Zuhur

Warna alam seterusnya berubah ke warna hijau (isyraq & dhuha) dan kemudian warna kuning menandakan masuknya waktu Zohor. Spektrum warna pada waktu ini bersamaan dengan frekuensi perut dan hati yang berkaitan dengan sistem penghadaman. Warna kuning ini mempunyai rahsia yang berkaitan dengan keceriaan. Jadi mereka yang selalu ketinggalan atau terlewat Zuhurnya berulang-ulang kali dalam hidupnya akan menghadapi masalah di perut dan hilang sifat cerianya.. Orang yang tengah sakit perut ceria tak ?

· Waktu Asar

Kemudian warna alam akan berubah kepada warna oren, iaitu masuknya waktu Asar di mana spektrum warna pada waktu ini bersamaan dengan frekuensi prostat, uterus, ovari dan testis yang merangkumi sistem reproduktif. Rahsia warna oren ialah kreativiti. Orang yang kerap tertinggal Asar akan hilang daya kreativitinya dan lebih malang lagi kalau di waktu Asar ni jasad dan roh seseorang ini terpisah (tidur la tu ..). Dan jangan lupa, tenaga pada waktu Asar ni amat diperlukan oleh organ-organ reproduktif kita

· Waktu Maghrib

Menjelang waktu Maghrib, alam berubah ke warna merah dan di waktu ini kita kerap dinasihatkan oleh orang-orang tua agar tidak berada di luar rumah. Ini kerana spektrum warna pada waktu ini menghampiri frekuensi jin dan iblis (infra-red) dan ini bermakna jin dan iblis pada waktu ini amat bertenaga kerana mereka resonan dengan alam. Mereka yang sedang dalam perjalanan juga seelok-eloknya berhenti dahulu pada waktu ini (solat Maghrib dulu la .) kerana banyak interferens (pembelauan) berlaku pada waktu ini yang boleh mengelirukan mata kita. Rahsia waktu Maghrib atau warna merah ialah keyakinan, pada frekuensi otot, saraf dan tulang.

· Waktu Isyak

Apabila masuk waktu Isyak, alam berubah ke warna Indigo dan seterusnya memasuki fasa Kegelapan. Waktu Isyak ini menyimpan rahsia ketenteraman dan kedamaian di mana frekuensinya bersamaan dengan sistem kawalan otak. Mereka yang kerap ketinggalan Isyaknya akan selalu berada dalam kegelisahan. Alam sekarang berada dalam Kegelapan dan sebetulnya, inilah waktu tidur dalam Islam. Tidur pada waktu ini dipanggil tidur delta dimana keseluruhan sistem tubuh berada dalam kerehatan.

Selepas tengah malam, alam mula bersinar kembali dengan warna putih, merah jambu dan seterusnya ungu di mana ianya bersamaan dengan frekuensi kelenjar pineal, pituitari, talamus dan hipotalamus. Tubuh sepatutnya bangkit kembali pada waktu ini dan dalam Islam waktu ini dipanggil Qiamullail.

Begitulah secara ringkas perkaitan waktu solat dengan warna alam. Manusia kini sememangnya telah sedar akan kepentingan tenaga alam ini dan inilah faktor adanya bermacam-macam kaedah meditasi yang dicipta seperti taichi, qi-gong dan sebagainya. Semuanya dicipta untuk menyerap tenaga-tenaga alam ke sistem tubuh.

Kita sebagai umat Islam sepatutnya bersyukur kerana telah di’kurniakan’ syariat solat oleh Allah s.w.t tanpa perlu kita memikirkan bagaimana hendak menyerap tenaga alam ini. Hakikat ini seharusnya menginsafkan kita bahawa Allah s.w.t mewajibkan solat ke atas hambanya atas sifat pengasih dan penyayang-Nya sebagai pencipta kerana Dia tahu hamba-Nya ini amat-amat memerlukannya. Adalah amat malang sekali bagi kumpulan manusia yang amat cuai dalam menjaga solatnya tapi amat berdisiplin dalam menghadiri kelas taichinya .

Ini hanyalah artikel sahaja.

Benar atau tidak tepulang bagi anda untuk terimanya atau tidak.

Apapun, Wallahu Warrasulu A'alam..

square one..

2009-11-19T19:43:00.000-08:00

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim..
All Praises Belongs to Him Who has restored us back to Life after causing us to Die, and to Him shall we return..
~~
My sinus is back.Chest Pain.
Tired of sneezing and "hembus hembus hingus"..addoooyyhh~
Oh Allah, Please Grant me good health..
Oh Allah, Please prolong my life with your Greatest Mercy..
So I can continue to worship you and seek knowledge to get closer to you Ya Rabb..
~~
These happiness aint forever..
After soo much pain, these happiness is true..
Yet there's more coming up, i never know what's stored for us in the future..
i keep praying to be grant full of strength and patience..
~~
back to square one.
the girl,
walking down the street alone..
holding the air tight with her..
looking at the nature, full of astonishment..
listening to her breath deeply..
those beads are the only company..
she rely on Him, trust in Allah..
fated.

~~
بارك الله فيكم وجزاكم الله خير الجزاء
والله تعالى أعلم بالصواب

touched my heart..

2009-11-12T12:43:00.000-08:00

Alhamdulillah.. 'ala kulli ni'amihi..

ana sangat bersyukur ana masih ada peluang untuk hidup..

my heart still pounding faster than ever..

i am very scared but ana dah usaha and now ana tawakkal 'alAllah..

ALLAH KNOWS what is the best for His servants..

never stop praying to Him..

cause He is the the BEST PROTECTOR for all living things..

a few days ago, there is one incident that touched my heart..

Masya Allah..

the people here are very kind-hearted although they are kind a physically rough..

the incident happen when i was on my way to school..

i was walking towards train track, when a blind man, say something to me..

& i dont really understand him but another second blind man say to me in arab but i translate it,"there's a train coming.." & another motherly woman said "Please wait my DEAR.."..

Those words really touched me..

Maysa Allah!! there are my saudara.. saudara seIslam!

i love them! Oh Allah, Please protect them from bad deeds and please lessen their burdens.Amin!

Islam is perfect.

Masya Allah, after 19 years and over i lived, honestly, now i realised how great my Deen is.

i am proud to be a MUSLIMAH..

Ya Allah, please guide me to the right path..

You are THE GUIDE TO THE RIGHT PATH.. In YOUR wisdom, you lead all matters to their finality in a perfect way and order..

Astarghfirullahal azim.. I've took the wrong step, wrong path..

Astarghfirullahal azim.. Ya Allah, what have i done to my brothers and sisters of Islam..

Astarghfirullahal azim.. Ya Allah, i realised and really regret for my wrong doings..

Astarghfirullahal azim.. Ya Allah, i repent.. I never want to make those mistakes..

Ya Ghaffar, Please forgive me.. Ya Ghafoor, Please accept my forgiveness..

You are the MOST FORGIVING ONE..

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SILENT.

back to square one.

i think it's the best thing i should do right now.

trying to stand up strongly.

hurt enough. only ALLAH KNOWS.

Please forgive me for those whom i have hurt you directly or indirectly..

Please give me time to change myself..

to be a better person, better Muslimah, Insya Allah...

Mak, Bapak.. she looks fine..

yet she is deeply missing you both deep in her heart..

loving you both till eternity..

please pray for her..

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لاَ يُؤْمِنُ أَحَدُكُمْ حَتَّى يُحِبُّ لِأَخِيْهِ مَا يُحِبُّ لِنَفْسِهِ

missing my family..

2009-11-03T11:01:00.000-08:00

Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli ni'amihi.
Wa Askuru illah 'ala kulli syai'in.
-
missing my loved ones deeply.
EMAK,
i miss looking at her every morning i woke up.
either i saw her doing her suboh prayer, or reciting the Quran.
i miss helping her out in the kitchen.
stayed up late to watch Indonesian drama.
miss her voice. miss her laughters. miss her smile.
miss her soo much!
only Allah knows how deep my love is specially for her.
-
BAPAK,
he is a quiet person yet i know he loves me.
i miss his ngoroks every night.hehe.
i miss looking at him reading the newspaper.
his loud and cute voice.his jokes with mak and me.
i never had the chance to tell him i love him.
but i really do..
-
ABANG IZAL,
we hardly talk to each other at home.
but lately, i feel close to him.
he is a really really caring and protective brother.
i am proud to his sister.
getting marry soon.
gonna miss sharing room with him.
miss looking at him eating.
miss open the gate for him.
miss my beloved brother Mohamed Norizal..
-
ABANG AZAN,
how close we are.
how we often argue and never talk to each other.
gadoh,gadoh and gadoh..
yet he is still my lovely brother.
miss playing our bantal busuk, sampai mak keep saying on throwing our bantals..
i am surely gonna pray for you my dearest brother.
i am surely loving you forever and more than your girlfriend.
i am never gonna let you drift.
i know Allah loves you and He knows what is the BEST for you..
please take care my dear brother...
i want to see the old you..
-
ABANG NOR AND KAK LIZA,
even though both of you are married,
i still miss you.
i miss those times we spend together..
abang nor, i miss the weekends when you brought me to places that i never went before.
thank you for the treats.
kak liza, i miss the time we shopping together.
you never stop giving me treats.
i enjoyed and love it soo much.
thank you dear..
-
my cute and darlings nieces..
aww, i miss your voices!your laughters, your tears, your shouts.
everything!i just cant wait to hug and kish kish you all!
-
my only hero!the cutest and the only kumbang among all.i missh your cute little voice.i miss watching you play the electric car.mitsubishi.honda.suzuki.hehe.i missh you baby ryan...
-
and thats my family.
till death do us apart.
and i thank Allah for these gifts.
i love them lillahi ta'ala..
Please Ya Ghaffar, please protect them.
Grant them full of happinness and please unite us.Alhamdulillah..
-
i never have the chance to say this to my beloved family..but truly i never stop LOVING YOU MY BELOVED FAMILY...

sad maybe.

2009-10-30T10:17:00.000-07:00

Praise to Allah for all the nikmat that is given..
Subahanallah wa Masya Allah.
-
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i learnt to only trust myself and Allah.
i know i am not alone for i knew Allah is with me as long i'm with Him.
those thick walls did make me fall..
somehow,i manage to stand up and be strong.
with the help from Allah,alhamdulillah...
-
cut.deep cut.broken.
maybe its because of my own faults that i never realised all these while but,
for now, i learnt a lot and i began to know myself.
i've putting too much hopes on others till i am blind to see whats the truth.
-
-
my back is hurt after being stabbed.
and my head is hurt after being stepped.
mak bapak.. i want you!how i wish you both are here..
i never share my problems for i never want you both to worry about me..
but somehow, its hurts me soo much mak bapak...
-
i want my family..
my real family that never stop to make me smile.
always care about me.
having you all in front of my eyes, will only make me feel better.
Ya Allah, please protect them from all bad deeds.
Please grant them happiness.
Please make us unite in our hearts.
Please bless us.
-
-
*crying in those smiles*
aku ingin mengadu padaMu ya Allah....
i know, the more i try to get closer to Him, the more i will be test to make me a better and stronger person than yesterday.Amin! insya Allah.

Unbelievable.

2009-10-26T14:20:00.000-07:00

bismillahirrahmanirahim..

long time tak update lagy..

Alhamdulillah, doing fine here. *maybeeee*

just took an imtihan qabul which started this year.

a VERY SURPRISED imtihan.

didnt expect anything.

but did my best.

study and pray to HIM.

i am very disappointed.

hurt. twice.

i appreciate every single thing that you have done for me.

Ya Allah, tiada tempat lain yang dapat aku mengadu selain padaMu..

Aku mohon kesabaran dan kekuatan dalam menjalani liku-liku kehidupan ini.

Dugaan ini terlalu berat buatku namun aku tahu Kau tidak akan membebankan hambaMu diluar kemampuan hambaMu itu.

Aku redha dengan setiap sesuatu yang berlaku pada diriku.

Kau tunjuk kan lah aku kebenaran yang sebenar-benarnya.

Amin.

Namun ya Allah, aku bersyukur dengan segala nikmat yang telah Kau berikan.

Aku yakin di setiap kesedihan, pasti ada kegembiraan.

I went to City Stars.

dinner treats for my lovely friends.

indeed, sharing is where my happiness come.

only with sharing some of my happiness i will gain satisfaction and joy.

money is NOT happiness.

BUT, the time that i spent with them is the Precious Gift that i will treasure.

kita pergy main funland..

1.main roller coaster.(boleyy tahan jugak la, main lepas makan confirm rasa nak muntah sikit.dia nie macam ala ala family coaster yang yang escape tuh. ade 5 rounds. and maboook ye.)

2. ecozone. (seraaaaaaaam and phobiaaaaa!!! i sat besyd ida yanag penakot, konon im the heroine lah, before enter, this was some of the conversation,

aisyah : awak, hantu dia budak2.

ida and i : boley tembak2 lah.gereknye..

right after a few sconds we enter,

ahhhhhhhh!! Astraghfirullah!Astarghfirullah! Allahu Akbar! Alllahu Akbar!

*kepala saya and ida countlessly terhantuk*

after enter,

ida and me: seraaaam giler!! tanak naik lagy!!! no!!!!!!

isyah and nady : *dengan selamba and rilek nye* asal korang pekik?O_o

conclusion : I NORLIYANA DONT WANT TO RIDE ECOZONE EVER AGAIN!!!!!!).

3. car bumper la gtu..( best la bawak kereta sondol sondol,hehe..)

Nikmat yang saya amat syukuri.

lastly,

hope.trust. ITS GONE!

-
وَعَسَى أَن تَكْرَهُواْ شَيْئًا وَهُوَ خَيْرٌ لَّكُمْ وَعَسَى أَن تُحِبُّواْ شَيْئًا وَهُوَ شَرٌّ لَّكُمْ وَاللّهُ يَعْلَمُ وَأَنتُمْ لاَ تَعْلَمُونَ

والله والرسول أعلم

independent

2009-10-06T22:37:00.000-07:00

one day trip to cairo.

i went with nurush to cairo meeting my nenek sedare.

she came Singapore to study so, i drop by my uncle house where she stayed temporarily.

my very first time went to cairo without any senior.

such an experience.a good indeed!

we took 'keretapi ayam'. and we were both clueless about 'mahattaram'.

so we asked a person next to us.

and she told us to drop at 'raml'. and wahaha. sunyi sepi ye.

takde batang hidung tremco or kenderaan pon! so, we wait agian for keretapi ayam.

and finally we reaxhed the place which is the last station of the train.

took tremco and sit at the back.

waduhh!! sakit badan! very super duper BUMPY!

F1 pon kalah!

once reached at ramsies, we headed to sabie'.

a student of my uncle fetched us from there and brought us to haiyu 'asyir.

ba'din, went to sky net and ziarah rumah2 di sana.

next headed to parquet. menumpang di rumah sana for one night.

Alhamdulillah. a day to cairo is worth.

thanks to those who help me a lot that day and night.

okay. thats for now.

missing umaimah wa ubaiyyah a lot!

praying hard. and never give up.

trust.

رَبَّنَا اغْفِرْ لِي وَلِوَالِدَيَّ وَلِلْمُؤْمِنِينَ يَوْمَ يَقُومُ الْحِسَابُ

"Ya Tuhan kami, beri ampunlah aku dan kedua ibubapaku dan sekalian orang-orang mukmin pada hari terjadinya hisab (hari kiamat)"

open house

2009-10-02T10:23:00.000-07:00

Bismillahirrahman nirrahim..

Rumah ana baru jugak habis open house.

Alhamdulillah. pada mulanye ade kechoh sikit.

*kemas sane.kemas sini*

but Semuanya dah selamat sekarang.

makanan yang terhidang,

hmmm,nasi putih.

ikan bakar bersama dua macam home made sambal.*slerrp*

kuah lodeh.*thanks to my sisters*

dadeh.

dan kueh keria!

minumam yang terhidang,

air teh ais limau*ana buat satu malam*hehe..

syrup!*made by kak idaaaaa hamra'*

semuanya sedap masya Allah.*puji sendiri*

ada yang tak makan ikan, pon jadi suke ye.

sampai berekor2 makan. hehe..

saat ini..

body aching.stomach grumbling.eyes closing.

im physically and mentally lethargic.

Subhanallah. Lega.

Semua tetamu nampak macam happy walau ade kecoh sikit.

terharu to those who came.Terima kasih kerana sudi datang.

to the absentees, sedih jugak la antunna tak turun.

tapi takpe, kte akan jumpe lain kali. Bi iznillah.

Ape pun, Minal 'Aidin Wal Faizin.

Kullu Sanah Wentum Bilkheir.

Ana happy sangat2. Doa kan ana okay?

"Ya Allah, Hanya Kau Yang Maha Adil Lagi Maha Mengetahui apa yang ana lalui.."

eid

2009-09-25T07:28:00.000-07:00

7 Syawwal 1430H..

Genap seminggu ana dah 'beraye' di sini.
hmmm, its TOTALLY different raya di sini.
no family,no relatives, no kueh2 raya like in Spore,no duit raya!

but Alhamdulillah, simple yet memorable for me.
met my friends at Markas, seek forgiveness and eat.
then headed home.
thats it.
even the Arabians here dont celebrate it that much.

BUT i love the RAMADHAN here.
it was super fantastic i would say.
moreover, i can hear every AZAN here, cause my crib is surrounded by lots of masjid. Alhamdulillah.

sini azan, sana azan, wow!
and kat sini jugak, subuh is around 3 plus.
so we sahur at 3 gitu and by 2 to 2 plus, kat luar ade orang ketuk ape entah kejut bangun sahur.
Masya Allah~*dah rasa macam kat kampung*
then, nanty time imsak pon ade signal.

Subhanallah!during Ramadhan jugak la mane2 dengar orang bukak Radio Quran, pegang Quran and even penjual2 pon they spent time baca Quran bila takde customers.

Masya Allah. Ana betol2 ta'ajjub la kat sini..
Barakallahufeehim wa Barakallahufiina..

ana pon dah mula rindukan Ramadhan.
rasa macam nak every month.but ALLAH MAHA ADIL & MAHA MENGETAHUI ape yang terbaik buat hambaNYA.

semalam teman-teman ana dari Kahirah turun Alex.
Ahlan Wa Sahlan Wa Marhaban Bikum~!

a new beginning.

2009-09-24T11:40:00.000-07:00

Bismillahirrahmannirahim..

Alhamdulillah, dah mula kehidupan saya saat ini.
Kehidupan yang memerlukan kesabaran dan ketabahan.

Dah terlalu ramai tanye ana, "what telah happen to my blog?"
"kena baca yassin ke?"haiz.sedih betol ana dengar.
jadi,inilah dia, ana ade semangat sikit.hehe.doa lah semangat ana takkan pudar.amin!

its been 2 months 22 days, ana dah menetap di bumi Anbiya',Mesir.
baaaaaanyak sangat yang ana pelajari di sini.
kalau nak share, rase2 nye, tak akan pernah cukup because every breathe i take, a new life begins.
tapi ana akan cuba untuk cerita kan pengalaman ana disini yanag boleh ana share dekat antum semua.

ana tanak cerita kisah dulu2 macam susah sikit.hehe.maap ye.
ana share lah ape yang fresh dalam fikiran ana.

the TWO main things ana nak highlight,bold,underline,color,paint dan ape2 la.pokoknye,PENTING bagi ana is KESABARAN.
kat sini, kesabaran ana betol2 diuji.nak nangis pon ada.nak putus asa pon ada.
tapi,to think twice, "inilah pilihan ana.ana kena kuat tempuhinya kerana insyaAllah,Allah akan lebih sayang kpd kita."

second would be DO'A.this is where i realise,i am a very snobbish person.ana ngaku.ana now sedar,Allah MAHA BESAR.MAHA BERKUASA."kun fayakun".Masya Allah~
saat ini, ana rasa sendiri but not literally lonely kerana insyaAllah, Allah ma'ana selagi kita bersamaNYA.
ana masih ingat sewaktu the first time ana berpisah dari my beloved family, ana rasa takot and lonely.
ana keep doa pada Allah untuk beri ana kekuatan dan ketabahan hati dan alhamdulillah hati tetap merindui keluarga tapi kerana untuk make my parents proud, ana would do anything..InsyaAllah~
di sini, hanya satu pedang jek yang ana ada that is,DO'A..
kerana......

"وَقَالَ رَبُّكُمُ ادعُونِي أَسْتَجِبْ لَكُم"
(Al-Ghafir : 60)

Firman Allah subhanahuwa ta'ala : "Pohonlah kepada Aku nescaya Aku akan menerima permintaanmu."

forgive me

2009-02-06T22:01:00.000-08:00

Please forgive me if i did hurt you badly..
im bad.
i realised it.

liyana..

2009-02-03T23:18:00.000-08:00

i'm currently happy with my surroundings although there's a lot of things bugging me right now..
first af all,i would like to thank nyzah,ida,syirah,mira,itah,huda and mardhiyyah for the VERY suprise party.i'm absolutely enjoyijn it and lovin it..
That was really touched and thoughtful of u all.
I never thought it will happen..n nyzah,thx for lying a LOT of things to me..
and im sooryy to wear brown on that day..hehe.*sehati sejiwa*.
i appreaciate every single seconds you girls spend tym with me..
it will forever be a SWEET memories that will be kept save in my heart..
Love you girls....

it's getting into my nerves..i dunno what is ur problem with me..
i'm trying to be good..
what did i do to u?.. plz lahhh..be matured even u are not..jgn nk step2 uhhh..wake up uh!!
susah kn idup org will make ur life worsen that the pple that u susah kn..
pahammm?
whoever u are..plzz wake up and be matured..

and you..thx for makin me guilty..
u wan it right?im will always feel guilty as long u are happyyyy..
whoever u are, be happy!

im tried and restless..

love

2009-01-31T04:29:00.000-08:00

hahahha~!
nearly half a month i didnt update my silently blogg..hehe..
been very very super duper BUSY with school things..
went hme at five every single day.
tired.restless..ary2 alek jekk lepak..cudnt be bothered with anything else..

btw,im definitely happy.
this month was my month of EXTRAlove.*winkz winkz*.
after 4 longg years knowing each other,right today i received something soo cute and pwetty..
i was romantically touched.haha!!*heart melting cair tnk freeze nyeee*
a suprised that really sapris me!
thank you YOU for it.Loving you foreverr..

i think i've been spending much this mth..haizzz..
i ate a LOT wokayyy..*cannot control seyyy*
till i gain weight!!arrrgghhhh!!*definitely gonna diet back*
everyday i spent dunnoe la hw much..but surely kuuar duit nyee..haizz..
i've plan to semunyi2 kn duit like before..*but still i will rmmbr where i put it,haha!*
nonetheless,i have to start saving and i really mean it..
pray for me murah rezeki kayy?love you too.

olryte,wanna play my facebook.
toodlezz!!ooo la laaa...

sheronok lahh..

2009-01-16T00:37:00.001-08:00

saya gumbira sekali werking at school..
i'm making new friends.
although at firts kekok sekali..
but now i'm happy mingling with them although they are older than me..
they taught me much and making me laugh each and everyday;D..

im always busy with FACEBOOK!!
its sooo addictive okayyy..
sebenarnye dah lame saye ader facebook..*berbulanz bulanz saya rase*
but on 11 jan aru saye pahem facebook and up till now im soooo updated with that..

btw,today is 16 january..
happy birthday to Muhammad Shukri..
smoga panjang umur and dimurahkan rezki mu..
the present might be late but i'll sure get u one okae<3<3...
you are getting more good looking and im happy:)..*hanya di mata hati ku wlu yg lain kate awk tk*
keep it up wokkaayyy..

olrytee..15 more mins before i can go home with babes down here.hehe.
i'm surely happy.ssoooooo happy.
i'm forgiving n forgettin all the past.
i just want to be friends.
itu pun lau maseh sudi although saye tak setaraf.

slamat people 'blaja'ing and werking..
&its friday!!tomorrow no werk.
relaxxx!!
love you all verryyy muchh although u dont..
saye belajar utk menerima and redha.

workingg.

2009-01-07T04:36:00.000-08:00

one word, LETHARGIC ..
three days past, and im soo tired.
i've been working at school with yam.*zah nas called her dat*hehe.

first day, work and work and work.
no brekfast,no lunch and had our lunchdine at 4!.
went to geylangg with yam,rasy n tengku..
fuyyyyoooo..restlesss okae..

second day, work and work again..
late lunch early dinner at home.haha!
new books came.busy and busy..

and today! we werk OT.haha!
office hours are from 9 to 5..
but we werk 8.30 to 6!!wahddduhh.
my legs are freeze!
my hands are numb..bdn ku dah pecahh belahh..

waitin for tomo again with the same dialogue,
1."cik nak yang takde tande."
2."cik nak yang cross2.."
3. "kak, nak yg nie *tunjuk paper yg dah mcm rojakz*
4."biler agknye smpi eh?"

haixxx..i almost memorised every qns and the ans..
muke saye pon dah macm buku.*empat persegi ye*..
saye lihat sume org satu color jek ye..PINK!!*tgk byk sgt baju riadah*..
kepela dah asek angguk2 tgk atas bwh, bwh atas..
i can become patung yang org letak kat kereta n kepala dia angguk2..hahah!!

nonetheless, im happy werking there! :D..
thank u zazah for employin me..

see ya yam tomorow.hahah!!

I've graduated.

2009-01-03T04:54:00.000-08:00

Syukur Alhamdulillah..

for the past 12 years, i seek knowledge at my beloved school and finally,

I have graduated!!

A BIG and endless thankful to my beloved teachers that never stop educating me and giving me moral supports..

and nawt to forget my loving parents that altough they didnt ask me how was my studies but DOA mereka yang tak terhingga!*tk tau camne nk say in eng la*hehe.. they educate me with the werd 'patience'.

Syukran Ya Allah atas segala nikmat yang Kau limpahkan padaKu, kesabaran dan kekuatan yang menjadi kan aku insan yang sempurna..

Syukran jazilan shadidan 'amiqan!!

to leave the school is too pain for me..

i am lost without wearing the school uniform..*mcm nk jek kai buat jln2*..

nonetheless im happy coz has given the chance to cum back to school for now..

helping down at school.i'm jubilant!at least i can still see my teachers faces and mingle ard with them.

i've took some pics during my graduating day.

but i wunt be posting it here.feel free to drop by at my multiply..

that is where my pics are published.;D

im no longer using student ezlynk card and its frustrating!!

arrrgghhhh!!i always forgot to tap during alighting..*dah biase tk tap la dulu.maklum la maseh muda*hahahaha..

now i have to think of the fares,i have to take the least bus so i wunt be spending much..

i can no longer do my fav hobby,taking ride from one bus to another..*one long haizzzzzzz*..

one werd is now in my mynd."saving"haha!

i have to bring myself a meal if i go out.no eating outsyd food.

i have to think of my dreams my wishes my life!

nonetheless,im not missing any happy times cause i learnt to forgive N forget.

all those grudges i've thrown away..

all my bad memories i put it all behynd..

all my sadness i've leave it back then..

please help me,friends ok?

& im still thinking what to buy.

how to make it memorable.

i'm nawt good in celebratin it.i'm nawt good at werds.i'm nawt good at taking photos.i'm nawt good at creativity.i'm nawt good in expressing my love.

oh i'm idea'less'.haha!

Selamat tahun baru.

2009-01-01T01:44:00.000-08:00

Selamat Menyambut Ma'al Hijrah..
although dah terlambat ye..but its okayy...
went to expo with nyza,ida,rasy n raf..
not soo crowded.manage to find a spot and we sit there berzikir.amin!

PLUS,Happy New Year!its 2009!!*cpt yeeeeee,takot saye*..
didnt celebrate it..but went down to the airport yesterday to fetch my aunt after performin her pilgrimage..
that was crowded to me!! cant even breathe!no air!!*mati saye yee*..
my cuzz and i were standing behynd two makchiks..when suddenly we heard a whole bunch of pom pom people shout*wooooooooooooooo plus clapping hands*..
ye,sambut org balek haji like that?not even saying alhamdulillah..cheyy..
so i said it to my cuzz and the makchiks infront me toleh and say "ah2 betol2" and i was paiseyyyy glerrr!!! these makchiks were listening to what i said from the beginning!! *malooo glerr and i shut my mouth temporarily..
and Alhamdulillah my makchik landed safely and semoga bibik mendapat haji mabrur.Amin!

for this brand new year,im trying to set some new resolutions again for myself..
its to imrove myself to be a better person..some of it will be:

1.to a better muslimahh*amin!
::cube untuk berpuase sunat setapak setapak.
::cube ye utk tidak melalaikn solat saye.

2.to be anak yang solehah.
::respect them every secs!
::not to shout at them.
::spend more tym with them.
::keep on praying for them.
::not to hurt them and jage hati mereka ye.
::&more....

3.to be a good student.
::study hard play less in future.
::senantiasa igt pd niat
::tak mau malash2.
::work hard in memorising Quran.
::&more...

4.to be a loyal teman.*winkz winkz*
::gain more trust.
::jage hati .
::be loyal.
::spend more tym msging/callin/meeting.
::&more..*shy want to say manyak2*

5.the most important is to be myself.

6.to be MORE independent..*takle duk bwh ketiak mak jek*:(

7.spent less,earn more!!!*ye..ini sgt penting yee,lau tak asek tgk jek bli, kocek dah lopong seyy*

8.Exercise a lot and i mean it,A LOT!

9.smile more,cry less..*naka sensitip2 laaa maklum la da besao*

10.watch MORE korean movies*td aru nak jd a gd muslimah.hehe..alaa,,shiket2 jekk*

11.buy the cheapest stuffs and GOOD QUALITY.*hahah cheapoooo ye saye*

12.Study Cooking!! & if can baking too..!*iye2 jekkk*

13.Less embarrasment pleaaaassseeeeee*simpan muke dlm kocek*maloo ye..~

14.Get rid of my phobia with sea,river,longkang dan sewaktu dgn nyeee...

15.to have a new motto:D..

rase2 ader bnyk lagy.lau nk tulis comfem org tdoo nye depan monitor..
nonetheless,i'm tahnkful to Allah to be alive right now with my beloved ones!

LOVE you all..Muuah!

2008-12-27T04:45:00.000-08:00

wahduh wahduh..*pinggang dah shenget bengkok2 bend2*..
saya penat ye..sgt!!
today was very hectic..gabrah ye saye dgn calculator..*mcm semut jumpe gajah*
semua makchik was geleng2 till this one makchik taught me how the calculator works!hahaha!
thx makchik..maap la ye!
but was happy werking!enjoying but restless..hehe..

5 more days to new year!!
wowwwww!times running so fast!
AND im turning sweeter next month!;D..
Lots of Love!n i mean it!VERY LOT!!*pejam2 celik*
ummie n abi agreed to grant my wishes.amin!
shukran LOVE!.shayang mak n bapak shooo mushhh!!..

im lovin my life more n more everyday!
please dun spoil it.hehe.
whadeva u wanna sae.u jus a small kid.*bdk mentah yang klau goreng pon mentah!*
im spending my precious tym wisely.alhamdulillah.
and i want to watch IP MAN again!!
sumone PUHLLEEZZZZ treat me..hehe..*muke tgh seposen niee*

gerkk leerrr!

2008-12-23T06:21:00.001-08:00

watch YES MAN with lovee..
errr..quite ok lah..
not that entertaining..dunnoe why..maybe didnt focus much on the show..most of the time i was zzzzzzzzzz..nantok yee!!

n today,met azhariyyats @ geylang to buy 2dung for our graduation day!!wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
our theme color was kuning2 air mcm mambang kuning jgk..
ye..susah ye nak carekkk with a very iritating makcik penjual..
mcm nk jek heboh kn satu geylang "jgn beli di situ kerana tidak dibenarkn utk menge'test'!!"..
den scnd stop was mai's kenalan..gerekkkk okayy...!!but still coudlnt find it..
n at last!kat joo chiat ye..Alhamdulillahhh!!
happy! happy!!

headed to tamp to meet nyzah kentalzz..hahaha!!!
we watch Ip man*i pronounce i p men*hahaha!!when it was eep man!
n i shud sae this LOUDLY N CLEARLY!!!.
cte dia gerekkk glerrrrrrr nak mati punya hidup lagi mati lagi!!!
i rated 10x10x10 STARS plus MOON plus SUN plus PLANET2 sume lahh!!!
POWER SGT LA!!!
its a must watch okayyyyyyyy!!!i cried at the end of the story...hehee*gembeng ye saye*..sedehh larrrhhh!!
when aft the show ended i look ard n saw nyzeh n i is the only malay audience.HAHAAA!!*kami dikelilingi dgn cina ye*..
but WHO CARES!!! the movie is FABULOUS FANTASTIC PLASTIC FANATIC CHAOTIC aper2 lagi laa!!!!!

haha..went back home safely.AMIN!
still thinking abt the storyline of ip man.
anybody wants to treat me again?*winks winks winks kucing meow2*

4 days.

2008-12-18T17:18:00.000-08:00

4 days done! with the d selling of books at my beloved sch..

1st day,quite okayyy..
everything went smoothly..not that tired..still can walk nicely n voguely.HAHA!
nothin much problems..

2nd day,reached school early with sweetfiyza..
have our breakfast n str8 to werk..
taggins2 susun2..tak habes2..hehe..a much more livelier day!!
NOT BORED..

3rd day,reached @ 7 n hell yeah..first customer!clean up!
again,check the books before it started..kanchiong yee!!
right at 10 a.m, its officially open!n vrrrooooooooooooooooommmm!!!*meluru ye makchiks masuk*.. first word came out "self service ye.." but u know..
some dont understand..then here comes the heroine save the day.. *amek2 buku,tick2n the most irritating part is BONGKOK yerrrrr*
same qns most all thetime.."nak,mane buku nie?".."bile smpi?"..haiz,simple!if the book is nawt there n its not available..you think i wud want to hide it..haizzzz..
came this 'brocik'*nak perasan mude la kunun*.."ABG nak buku ni yang..."yeah right! yang keperrrrrr! when soon aft that i saw hym with his wife.. tk malooo yerrr!!!
came this kakak ask me abt how to deal with her dauighter who dislike arab n so forth..yerrrrrr!!my place is for "books for primary 3 cum COUNSELING"..cter2..npromote2 my sch lib sikit..hehe!!until this kakak change number with me..waowwww!!!!
at the end of the day..pack2 sum books with faiz..thx for ur help yerr!..*walau mcm roti kirai* n thx to the MOST irritating boy i shud sae..not man!!

4th day,again i reached at 7..n encik sukuriti ask me to look out the garage cuz he wants to go home..n yeahhh!!im alone at school!!!!wallau..freakkyyyyy*dadaku dab dub ye*..
naseb baik ader kerata2 yang lalu..*kunun lau ader paper leh pekik2 hahaha*aft abt 30 mins..zah nasuha cam with cik milah..finally!!
today no pakchiks2 or makchiks2 yg kecoh2 tanye tu or ni..Alhamdulillah..
but during the packing time..wallau!!!kecoooohhh yerr!!n again!im irritated with this person!!
everybody are tired n u expect me to go in there!? thx arrrhhh!! i have to deal with the store! thx to you! ye saye t'bongkok2 lagy ye n t'hantuk2 almost 10 times i guess..confused! frust! arrgghhh!! and we are paid for what we've done these days.Alhamdulillah..

went back home..now im down wth fever.haizzz.pinggang ku di belah 2 ye..dan kaki ku dah tercabot! wahduuhhh!! so yeah!today gonna qadaaak back all my tiredness n sleepless..
dah mcm zombie yang mati 10 kali yee...
btw faiz,congrats for ur N though ur math failed.haizzz..risau saye yee! but aftr all,i noe u can do better in ITE.Amin!

HOME

2008-12-13T06:21:00.000-08:00

im back at homw after 4 nights spending at my aunts hse.

i went with nyza on thu.met her aft her sch.
head to QIJI.satrving.talkz n saw those girls.*silence*.longg time didnt see her.
the next day met her AGAIN.going for job intview but i was late.then we headed to parkway..
dissapointed.no discount for CottonOn.

nothing much happen yet im enjoyin myself.
i just fell in love.i felt like i've just know him yesterday.time flies.i cant believe im with him.*mcm nk pikat lagy gtu*
i love my realtionship.i love him.
planning for our future.
mum really wants to let me go.but im not even ready yet.sorri mak.
i want to pursue my studies n make u proud.
at the same tym,i have to start saving,the real saving for 'that'..
pray for me okeh?n us too!!heh.

bored.

2008-12-10T18:05:00.001-08:00

im down with flu..haiz..
irritating!!
feel like washing my nose and have a very CLEAN one!

slept over my aunt's hse again.
accompanying my cous..planning to go out tomorrow..
window shopping and hunt for bags n shoes!!
but not buying it..i have to SAVE a lot!
n i meant it.

meeting love aft werk.
Alhamdulillah..
shall have our dinner.n headed home.
still missing you though......

cte2..

2008-12-08T02:26:00.000-08:00

it was fabulous!!

finally got the chance to meet hym..

after like soo lonnnngg since we met..we made the date on sat!

things went pretty good and we enjoyed ourselves..

till the rain pours,we ran through it together like we've promise to each other..

accompanied hym to buy helmet.bought one simple one n we are lovin it!!

hope to meet you soon!!

p/s : i love you just the way you are...

ouh,my fren just turned 18 last few days n im turning 19 next month!!!

oh mann!!!y is the clock running so fast?

i wanna be a todler,being pampered!awww!!TOYS!*oh!i wish u noe hw much im missing it right now*

everybody wants to be the happiest person in the world during their bdae!!

well,so do i..but its hard to get it..BUT,im at least contented with what i have,

-a very cute parents that taught me to be in the 'low' *na..kte kne berakit2 ke hulu berenang2 ketepian,bersusah2 dahulu bersenang2 kemudian* its true!!

even in my life,too much of difficulties i have encounter n the most hardest thing that have put a BIG impact on me..*berat gillerr ye saye pikul* is abt friend/friends..haha!!n it put me years to ponder on it..after one 'story' to another..im was dumb to think abt it 24/7 till i neglect my parents..

n NOW,everything was fine..i have friends n my parents are still here with me..i guess the BIG present that i have is to be alive n live with my parents ..

although they did not give me the 'perfect' luxurious life that i've always want, i still have them to trust me,love me,not using me,care for me and most of all live with me..

My love for you is never-ending..Im sorry if i did mistakes that hurt you..*amak!kn da emo!*

tukar cter!!

just came back frm mak long's crib..

listened to old stories abt my moyang who married 7 wives..!!

One of them got pregnant at the age of 60++!!!*tua2 pon mengandung beb*..

and the child was healthy!!*miracle isint it?*wah pyiang eh!!

when she was pregnant,my late nenek also pregnant n my mak long oso pregnant!!!*glerr ke ape* all gave birth at the same time!!!*kewl right?*

wahhh!!how do they call each other seyyhh..!

hmmm, do you think it can happening in this era?

ponder yourselves..hehee!

btw Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha!

tak tau lah

2008-12-02T17:33:00.000-08:00

i miss my comp!
i slept over at my aunt's hse since sacoz my aunts goin to perform her pilgrimage..
after sending her,gain,slept over at their hse..

n finally im home!
didnt have arest for quite long time..
tired n restless.
i'm shall qadak every single seconds of my sleep..

i hate being control.
i hate being judge..i know im not as good as her..but could u at least treat me like a woman..
just because i'm a madrasah student, doesnt mean im totally good..
everyone made mistakes..just because of one rotten apple doenst mean it applies onto the other.
i hate okayyy?i never ask for ur praises..i just want u to treat me or i shud sae look at me in manners..
u are more matured! u shud have brain to think!!
im invisible to you.thank you..
now,how can i respect u when u never respect me as young..
all i can do is sit and wait for ur rude manners..
i respect kind people..u are not in the list!!
Nor you!

maloo lahh.

2008-11-27T06:20:00.000-08:00

just reached hm aft celebrating nasyita's besdae!
Happy Birthday to You!!

i was late.not suprising her but at least got the chance to meet her..
head up to ct hall takin 960 n its damn long okay..*buntut da lepeh seyy*hehehe..
ate with ida,huda,myra,itah,nyza,syirah at Qiji..i was damn starving but chose to eat popiah oni..
coz mum cook nasik lemak today!!
have a great day with them..though kind a awkward but enjoyin it...!!
hope to mit you all again..insyaAllah..

random.

i was reminiscing my MOST of my ~~embarassing~~ moments...

1.i fell down in the MacD with milos n drinks all over my body..
happily bought the meal when i turned ard there was sumone moping the floor*kunun nk berseh uh*..but thanks to me!!i make it damn clean!!!hahaha..
i freaked out n threw the tray upward *haiyo..oni the witnesses knew it*..
*malu die2 nye!!!*my white scarf turns brown..COOL huh?

2.TM..dun mention this plz.hehe..TRAUMA okayy!!
this 'unknown' man spoiled my lonely day.. fell in front of PASTAMANIA!!
next again fell at the escalator!! n went to d toilet to wash it..
*takle imagine eh maloonye jln basah kat bwh..*call hym ngadu n cry..
n came a very 'concern' makchik ..
makchik : nape nak nanges?mak mane?~~kenching~~ eh?nak chik anta?
wahlaw!!! n the day end with another fall at the int chasing for the bus..
*clumsy nye kte!!!!!!!**simpan muke kat kocek*

3.jokes.haha!!trying to cover la kunun..it was during zah shikin wedding day..
while waitin for her,went TM*not TM again,,bad luck say* i was walking with sweetfiyza,fadh,mai,ain,n jeeja...i wasnt my wedding transport to be a 'cheetah'!!coz it is fast!!n not waste of tym..haha!!!went suddenly i confident nye said..
"bkn binatang larr..kn ade KERETA cheetah..hahaha??*got it?*"
dgr2 jaguar da tuka cheetah pe..again!!!PAISEYYY okayy..tryin to caver2 lahh but failed.haha!!
*why m i so confident nih?*haiz..

4.in the mrt.i was standing in front of three of my friends..*amak!1lupe sape2*hehee..shorie..
i tot the is a pole behyn me when i just swing my hand backward.......PAAAAPPP!!!
oppppppssss!!!shorieee!!!!Haiyaa!!i hit a girl okayy!!!infront of those penduduk mrt!!*embarassed crazyyyyy lahhh*
but at least i have my friends to cover2 maloooo..hehe..

this is what i can think..got anitin that i cnt rmmbr..feel free to temme..hehe!!
nk letak pat diary lerr...*memories of me!*hehe..

contented

2008-11-26T04:08:00.000-08:00

im contented..Praise to Him.Alhamdulillah..
i passed n manage to get above the target to enter Azhar..
satisfied n again happy.thx to pples who never stop supporting me.
LOVE YOU..

im letting it go..no hard feelings..i have new resolutions..
a new life again..the cuts might stay with me but it will be heal someday..
i shud stop finding one coz i wunt get the right her.the right replacement.
afterall,im back to square one.n i'm glad im enjoyin it!
i love you still for all the memories that i have with you despite you hurt me deep in here..
then again,no hard feelings!happy for you..

went out with mum again..happy!
mum asked to marry firts den up to me to study..haiz..
mum dowan him to wait long2..hehee..so thoughtful of you mum..
mum said four years is way too long..

mum : yana tk rindu mak ke?..
me : *awwww* of cosh mak! ane leh tk rindu..
mum : abeh 'pakcik' kau?
me : pakcik?? *thinking*... hehe.. rindu jgk siket2 *softly said*hehe..

then this makes me think of the best way not to make them worry n him waiting..
heheee..can i bring them alonggg??please please..
Ya Allah,please protect my loved ones especially my beloved parents...

me n Love was talking abt back then,hw we fell in love..
so KENTAL!!!!!!paisey cte2..hehe..yet these make us love MORE!!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

its kind a hectic down here!but im having so much fun laughing n smiling...!!!
thanks to YOU n YOU n YOU!!
Love you ALL!!

my hormones are all over the places..BEWARE!!